Getting up there

I woke up this morning was did some deep thinking. What have I done with my life so far? Where am I going? I am really excited for where my life is going, not so happy with all the choices I've made but you live and you learn from the past and your move on! For the life of me I couldn't remember how old I was this morning. I thought I was 25. It wasn't until I did the math that I realized, I'm 26 years old. WOW!! That's four years away from 30! I really need to take a deep breath and relax and just enjoy where I am at today. I have a big habit of when things are going good for me,I find a way to make things go sour. I'm not comfortable with things going smoothly for some reason. Maybe I can blame my childhood for this?! I do this without thinking about it. It wasn't until last summer that I realize I do it (actually my counselor helped me realize this). From this day forward I'm going to enjoy life and not dwell on what I want right at that moment. In time I will get everything that will make me happy, I just have to be patient. Our house is coming along, slowly but surely, and we have plans to start our family soon!! You know life is not bad at all. We aren't strapped for cash (like too many people these days), we are lucky enough to build a big beautiful house out here on the ranch, we have 4 awesome pets that we love and adore, and our family is amazing! I'm also taking another shot of a vegetable garden. Wish me luck! I bought a book to help me this time!
The point of this blog is that I have finally realized how I act (very selfish!) and that things are never as bad as you think they are. Unfortunately I always think the grass is greener on the other side and really it's not! Please don't get me wrong I am a very grateful and happy person, it's just this week is always a rough week for me, some years it's rougher than others but I get through it! I always do!